It is not always your fault, and you don't have to roam around blaming yourself. Let it go and just focus on yourself.
We've all said sorry to someone just because we did not want to cause more problems than what was already there. It's okay to apologize to someone when you think it will benefit both of you, but never say sorry for being yourself, that has nothing to do with them. we've become so accustomed to apologizing for being ourselves because we are worried that people may leave if we just are our true self. But, that's the thing. Is it even a meaningful relationship if we stick to someone who does not appreciate us just the way we are? That's not how it's supposed to be, right? So, start afresh, and stop apologizing for these things.
Your past is in your past, and no one else should be given the authority to take it from there. Also, your past is who you are now, and what's molded you into this better person, so there's no need for you to apologize to anyone about it. There is especially no need for you to feel ashamed about your past just because someone does not see eye to eye. Live and let live. But just don't say sorry for it.
We all make mistakes and that's how we learn. We often put all our trust in the first person that comes along and says they're our friend, and we do confide in them, only to realize they just did not mean what they said. And, it's okay. I know it hurts and makes you wonder what you did wrong. Truth be told, you haven't done anything wrong and it has nothing to do with what you did. It was all them.
A relationship is between two people and these two people are the only ones responsible to sustain it. If the relationship fails, it means one of them did not put in the effort it takes. It may be you or your partner, but if it fails despite you thinking you put in all the effort, then stop blaming yourself. There's nothing more you could have done to sustain it and just seek comfort in the fact that this was maybe not meant to be.
No one is perfect. You have strengths and weaknesses, just like everyone. So it's okay if you're not good at something because it means you excel at something else. Life can be hard at times and you may not be able to cope with it because you're not good at it. Just because that particular thing is not your strength, does not mean you failed in life. Learn from your mistakes and move ahead.
At the end of the day, all you have is yourself. You talk to yourself the most, so don't spend time hating yourself. Instead, embark on a journey to discover new things about yourself, and focus on the things that make you happy. Make yourself your priority instead of wasting time trying to make the people around you happy. They're not always going to be there for you. Count on yourself. Focus on yourself.
Everyone has guilty pleasures. If you like to just chill at home in your pajamas, catching up on a show or just reading a book, do that. Don't force yourself to do something just because people all around you are doing the same thing. It's like forcing yourself to become another person when you really know that this is not what you yearn for. Do not feel sorry or apologize to anyone for prioritizing yourself.
Not everyone can like you for the way you are. Someone or the other is going to find faults in you, that's just how people are. Honestly, it has nothing to do with you. The sooner you realize that, the easier it gets to be happy for just being yourself. You just can't force people to like you. All you can do is not giving them the satisfaction of letting it affect you and show them you need no one's approval to live happily.
Your emotions are a part of you. It does not matter if you cry too much or laugh too much. When it comes to feelings, there's no such thing as too much, and the sooner we realize that, the happier we will be. If you feel like you're being overburdened by your emotions, do something that you know will help. If going on a drive helps, then do that. If listening to music helps, do that. Do whatever helps. unapologetically.
Failures quite literally are the stepping stones to success, and you need to know failure to know how to succeed in life. Again, people are not born perfect to know everything and they are bound to make mistakes and fail in something at some point. That's how you learn. That's how you finally get to stand tall on your two feet. Do not apologize for failing. You have nothing to be sorry about and you definitely have to apologize to no one for it.