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Woman Writes Heartfelt Break-Up Letter To Her Own Foot Before Getting Part Of Leg Amputated After Enduring Years Of Pain

Woman Writes Heartfelt Break-Up Letter To Her Own Foot Before Getting Part Of Leg Amputated After Enduring Years Of Pain

After spending nearly 14 years in excruciating pain with an ankle injury, she decided that the best way to be able to do the simple things in life was by letting go.

It's never easy to say goodbye, and a 27-year-old woman from Colorado knew just what she had to do when the time came for her to say bye to a part of her limb. Jordan "Jo" Beckwith had to withstand years of excruciating pain on her ankle, so she decided to write a proper goodbye to it, before making the decision to amputate it, following years of pain from an old injury, reports People.

Just before her amputation surgery, Beckwith described her experience of writing a "break-up" note to her limb as "cathartic".  She said, "The day before [the surgery], I wrote a break-up to my ankle…it was super cathartic." Her mother, friend, and husband too wrote goodbyes to her limb. "It was really nice to have that opportunity to say goodbye. I know a lot of people don’t have that chance, so it was nice to have that closure." Amputation sometimes is done after years of an injury, like Jordan's, while most of them are done based on the severity of injuries after an accident. 


 
 
 
 
 
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Written on the top part of her ankle, Beckwith's note read: "Dear ankle, it’s not me, it’s you. We’ve had some good times together, but it is time for us to part ways. I wish you all the best! - Your Blood Supplier." A dotted line with a pair of scissors was drawn around her leg, under which she and her relatives wrote goodbye messages. Many of us would find it traumatizing to lose a part of ourselves, but for Beckwith, this was something that was inevitable. At the age of 13, she met with a horseback riding injury where she severely injured her ankle. Over the next 14 years, Beckwith has had more than 10 surgeries and procedures to mend the damage. "I was always some sort of pain and I was always on some kind of medication all throughout high school and my early 20s,” she explained. So unbearable was her pain that it reached a point where she was taking Vicodin every day.


 
 
 
 
 
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"When you can do that and still be perfectly functional, it’s really concerning because those aren’t drugs you’re supposed to take every day. But I had to take them to be able to function, to be able to do my job, and to be able to hold conversations with people," Beckwith said. It got so bad that she had to leave her college and her job to return back home. 


 
 
 
 
 
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Beckwith knew that increasing her dosage wasn't good for her, and even walking short distances was too painful for her to endure. Because of this, she knew she had very little options left in front of her, and seriously considered amputation to free her from the excruciating pain she was experiencing. She said, "I always knew [an amputation] was inevitable someday, but someday was supposed to be when I was 60 or 70. When I couldn’t do anything… I felt in my heart and my soul that I knew this was the right choice."


 
 
 
 
 
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After discussing it with doctors and other amputees, she went ahead with the amputation. There were some complications, but to her, this is any day better than what she went through with her limb still intact. She is scheduled to have another surgery in April. "I haven’t had any moments of regret. It has been really hard — I can’t sugar coat that — it has been really hard adjusting and there’s a lot of things you can’t prepare for. But even in all of that, I know that every day gets better instead of before when every day got worse," she said. 


 
 
 
 
 
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Beckwith decided that she wanted to share her story with the rest of the world. So she started her own YouTube Channel named 'Footless Jo'. She shared, "I felt alone, so putting my story out there, I hoped maybe one person won’t feel that way. But that got returned to me a hundred times over because so many people have shared their stories to me and their struggles and thought process."


 
 
 
 
 
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Now, as she gears up for her next and hopefully her last surgery, Jordan says she looks forward to getting back to the simpler things in life. "Being able to get up in the morning and walk my dogs around the block, that’s something I used to love doing. But my super hope and dream are to go jogging with my dad because I have not been able to run since I was 12. He’s a big jogger so I would love to get a running leg and actually go with him one day,” she said.


 
 
 
 
 
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As for what she’s learned throughout this whole process, she said, "So many people have expressed to me ‘I could never do this’ and I appreciate them, but it’s also a sad comment. We are all so much more capable and perseverant than we think we are. If anyone is faced with a major challenge like this that you don’t think you’ll get through, I promise you, you can. There is a way through even if it’s hard."

 
 

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