Lovato opens up about her journey in a documentary, that will be air its first episode on YouTube, on March 23.
Singer Demi Lovato suffered a near-fatal drug overdose in 2018 and now, she's opening up about what she went through and the lessons she learned from it. The 28-year-old revealed she was hospitalized following the drug overdose and suffered three strokes and a heart attack while recovering at the hospital. Lovato will tell her story as part of a documentary Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil. The trailer of the same premiered on YouTube, reported People. The singer was also left with brain damage as the result of the overdose. She revealed how the event changed her life forever, and how it still affects her three years after the incident. "I was left with brain damage, and I still deal with the effects of that today. I don't drive a car, because I have blind spots on my vision," Lovato told reporters while sitting alongside documentary's director Michael D. Ratner at the documentary's Television Critics Association panel on Wednesday. The documentary also features footage from last year, before her engagement to Max Ehrich was called-off.
The 28-year-old said it also hindered her visibility and she could hardly read. "For a long time, I had a really hard time reading. It was a big deal when I was able to read out of a book, which was like two months later because my vision was so blurry," said Lovato. The overdose proved to be a stark warning for her. "I dealt with a lot of the repercussions and I feel like they are still there to remind me of what could happen if I ever get into a dark place again. I'm grateful for those reminders, but I'm so grateful that I was someone that didn't have to do a lot of rehabbing. The rehabbing came on the emotional side," said Lovato.
As much as it affected her both physically and emotionally, Lovato maintains she wouldn't change a thing about the past even if she could. "Everything had to happen in order for me to learn the lessons that I learned," said Lovato, reported People. "It was a painful journey, and I look back and sometimes I get sad when I think of the pain that I had to endure to overcome what I have, but I don't regret anything. I'm so proud of the person I am today," she added. The 28-year-old said she was proud people would get to see her struggle and her fight in the upcoming documentary. The documentary features incidents and moments leading up to her overdose and how things unfolded after that. Lovato's friends and family make appearances in the documentary, including her mother, step-father, and her sister. Elton John also features in the documentary.
"Anytime you suppress a part of yourself, it's going to overflow," Lovato can be heard saying in the trailer. She also opened about her sobriety and said she had learned so much during those six years. Lovato said talking about her fight following the overdose was also a way of holding herself accountable. "That's a huge reason as to why I'm doing this, but I think that I was just so proud of the growth that I experienced and something inside of me was really excited to share that with people," she added.
While on the outside, it looked like she was battling substance abuse, Lovato said it was a multitude of factors including "past traumas" and the things she faced within the industry. All these eventually led her to what she described as her breaking point. She also believes that the music she intends to make will come from a place of truth. "As long as I continue to tell my truth, I'm going to make music that resonates with people," said Lovato. "And that's my purpose. I'm an artist that cares a lot about her community — and my community is the entire planet — so I just I'm always striving to help. I think that my work is going to only benefit now that I've learned so much about myself." The Documentary's first episode will premiere on YouTube on March 23. In one of the poignant moments in the trailer, she says, "I'm rebirthing. I'm starting over."
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